Felt Down and Drown....

I felt down ....I felt lost inside after my late father just passed away almost three months, he leave us.For the past 2 months, hospital as a second home.Being go up and down to hospital teach me to realized something, like been knocked for a while from ordinary routine life.Seeing sick people around everyday for 2 months, old and young while I taken care of my ill father make me realize for something, indifferent in life.. Being juggled with work life, taking care of my newborn baby and taking care of my ill father, I will not to complain whatever life give me, instead I should be thankful for a small test. It make me to be stronger than ever and to appreciate life.. . There were some people out there,even a year or many years wishing for new hope which is getting healthy and away from hospital.Lets include their wish in our prayer.The experiences given me a new perspective of appreciate life and keep healthy is the most precious thing in life. 

My late father been diagnosed with rare prostate disease, Something rare is not good as according to doctor. I fell drowned at the very first time when the doctor tell me the result...  .The cause of the disease unknown and as usual blame for smoking and high alcohol intake .I try not to lost hope and not to give up..but after all, GOD knows better. My late father leave us at the age of 79 years old.R.I.P apai..

 Picture taken 31 January 2014 during discharged for first time admitted at hospital.My heart cried see this picture, mesmerized the sad moment.

Picture taken at ruai back to 2011.. I still remember,I asked him question.''Is it painful tattooing at your neck? Yalah because neck skin thinner that shoulder? He replied no ..it is fell like ant's bike. ''...He was tough person..

Probably I should keep writing for soul therapy..and keep sharing