It's Dark

Do you afraid of the dark ? I mean, we can’t see something, unless turn on the light. Me...yes. Since, childhood. I don’t want to be alone to go to toilet at the middle of the night. Unless someone accompany me or switch on the light for me. Until now, the feeling fear of the dark still is disturbing me.

I don’t know why. I guess maybe somebody else was waitin for me at the dark. Probably a ghost or many ghosts. Or anything that I can’t identify, because I cannot see. It’s dark.

Sometimes, I ask myself. Why should I’m afraid of the dark. In fact, I do not know anything what is in the dark there. I predict there maybe a ghost. Or because, I’ve been ‘trained’ to be afraid of the dark since childhood. Then, the feeling strongly attach to me, until now. I still remember, during childhood. Even three or four with our friends walk alone along the path during it almost dark, just come back from playground. We will run very fast with all of our energy we have. Nobody wants to be behind. Me, of course, I will be in front or in the middle of my friends.

In live, there so many things, that I’m afraid of. Just I can’t explain about it. One of them is the loss of the love one. Mean that, when one of family member pass away. But its nature of human live, one died and one will be born. It’s really sad. Nothing can be explained to the feeling being loss of my brother. Sometimes, in live I take things for granted. Just after I’ve loss, I realized how much I appreciate it. But, sometimes it’s too late…